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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 00:58

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Would this be the day?

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Comes on , in middle age.

It was going to be , some day.

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I will be 64.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

When she asked me how she looked .

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

What is the story behind bhai dooj?

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Why do men choose to marry a plain Jane woman over a pretty woman?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She loved him until the end.

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

(And it was in our own minds.)

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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One cannot live in the past .

What did i know ?

Why did i forgive my father ?

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Who then, do I blame.?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I was very sick at this time too.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

This is soul school!.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I have no regrets .

Put me off passion for life!!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I waited trembling.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

She married twice! .

But, we were locked up after school.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

All the time i was locked up.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Ive learnt so much.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And who doesn’t know suffering?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

My mum and dad in the seventies!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I said to her

I don,t even have a pension.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She wouldn,t have been !

But it wasn’t much.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We all went to grammer schools

On the 31st of Jan this month .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I was 9 years of age.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

We were not on the streets..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He resisted the act ,that day.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

As i do to all so called friends.?

Im still living with it.

So whats the point in blame.

So, i spoilt her more .

My family never makes their pension either.

Was to survive, this bastard.

She found it foreign!.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

She was in good health!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

And i lived it daily.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I think the readers, may guess!

I was seconnd youngest,

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But ive been too sick for many years..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

He knew the spot.

My life is so biszare .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I write beautiful poetry .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Especially a lifetime of it.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I was scared of men, in general