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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 02:29

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

All the time i was locked up.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

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I waited trembling.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She wouldn,t have been !

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Comes on , in middle age.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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She found it foreign!.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

So, i spoilt her more .

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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It was going to be , some day.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I was very sick at this time too.

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He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

My parents force me (15yo atheist) to go to church, and there’s this thing called Small Sundays where we discuss the Bible in groups, there are questions asked about the Bible. What am I supposed to do when they ask?

One cannot live in the past .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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My life is so biszare .

She married twice! .

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

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He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She loved him until the end.

I was scared of men, in general

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Would this be the day?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

What did i know ?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

But it wasn’t much.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I don,t even have a pension.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I write beautiful poetry .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I never cut or harmed myself..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

When she asked me how she looked .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I said to her

So whats the point in blame.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I will be 64.

I was 9 years of age.

Especially a lifetime of it.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

(And it was in our own minds.)

This is soul school!.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Was to survive, this bastard.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She was in good health!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

We were not on the streets..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

My family never makes their pension either.

I think the readers, may guess!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Put me off passion for life!!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

But ive been too sick for many years..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But, we were locked up after school.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Im still living with it.

He knew the spot.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was seconnd youngest,

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Who then, do I blame.?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I have no regrets .

I could never make a relationship work though!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Ive learnt so much.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

And i lived it daily.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

We all went to grammer schools

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.